Laid off and angry
I’m sure it’s not surprise that when a person is laid off they are angry. I know I am! I was laid off in January due to ‘re-organization’ and it’s been very difficult. The difficulty is that it’s heart-breaking, not just personally but also professionally. On a personal side, I’m losing my house and it’s a daily challenge to hang on to my self-esteem. I worked for 20 years, only taking time off for 2 surgeries, and fought to get to a certain level where I could make my own money and support myself without having to rely on anyone – ever. Now, the simple things I fought so hard to get – my modest home and car, food in the fridge, insurance and a tiny savings to have a real vacation have all vanished.
Professionally, I’m embarrassed and belittled. This was not my fault which I know. But, there are so many people in the company that let me go that are way less experienced and they have their jobs. The big difference was that I was not one of the people who constantly managed or massaged and held on to my belief that if you’re paid to do a job then you should be able to do it.
Yes I’m totally scared out of my mind and have to suck it up now every day, but at least I have hope that I may make more of my life than a babysitter for a kiss ass. It may be my pride talking, but I’d rather believe that my life will be better and even as I lose material things, I’m hanging on to my knowing that I wasn’t a sell out.
Phew.. that feels better getting this out there. Thanks!
April 10th, 2009 at 6:16 PM
I agree, and am sorry for your plight. Getting laidoff is a very humbling experience. it makes you question your self worth, and the value you provide to an employer. but, how can some of the morons that work around this great land of ours still remain employed.
is that snarky or honest?
May 30th, 2009 at 9:22 PM
How do you write a post on here anyway?
I agree also. It’s embarrassing to say the least. I was probably one of the most diversified licensed guys at work, yet I got thrown under the bus by all the insecure nitwits that got the dog eat dog mentallity. I was laid off because I asked not to go out of town when my wife was sick (and we have two kids 3 and 6), even though I offered to go if no one else could. My boss told me that I was laid off because I didn’t go out of town and that it would be “a good lesson for me”. That phrase itself irks me the most. As someone else said, what comes around goes around. Keep your low life butt kissers and I’ll try to bury you, your company and everyone left there when things pick back up.
July 21st, 2009 at 1:26 PM
My situation may make you feel better.
I caused myself to be laid off. I took a great job with Ernst & Young making around $40k annually. Told them I’ve hadn’t used MS Office is a while and choked when two easy jobs came my way and then did not open a folder that was marked ‘Final’ on the cover only to discover that there were three corrections to be made inside! That was the last straw after only a month!! Two years later and five or six temp jobs later, still can’t let it go.
October 1st, 2009 at 4:13 PM
I am so upset about being told I am being laid off, that I am actually sitting at my desk at work looking up posts about being laid off – I usually don’t even take time out from my work to go to the bathroom, now I am playing on the computer because I am so scared that I can’t think straight.
After 22 years at this company, the last 16 of which I developed and managed a branch of the company – a branch that realizes a significant profit – because of the need to cuts costs across the board – I am losing my job. I have stellar evaluations and the greatest respect from my colleagues and business associates that anyone could ask for. I am just scared to death that I will not find another job. I can retire from my present company, but a far less rate than I need in order to make it. The worst for me, is that they are keeping the branch I developed open with reduced services,and they don’t even know what it is that I do to make it work and make it turn a profit. I am not of the mind to share anything with anyone from the company. I am just so scared and getting more angry by the moment – I am scared because anger and fear are pretty out of character for me. I almost think I need to go see a doctor about this – I can’t sleep and I am ok one moment and the next moment I am in tears. I find myself saying negative things to clients about the company – I would never do this. Any advise? Is this normal to feel this way? I appreciate any comments.